[A man] doesn’t always know himself what he could do, but he feels by instinct, I’m good for something, even so! … I know that I cold be quite a different man! … There’s something within me, so what is it!*
Vincent van Gogh

We see our turning points as a matter of life and death.**
Bruce Feiler

Something has changed.

I am nowhere near where I thought I would be,
Forty or
thirty or
even twenty years ago.

I think I’m coming to know
what I am good for.

Not the result of a single
once-and-for-all decision.

When I look back,
I see there have been so many moments of
letting go and letting
die,
Many times one leading to another
until I am good for something.

*David Epstein’s Range;
**Bruce Feiler’s Life Is In the Transitions.