What were you thinking?

The excitement rush is over and the reality of what you’ve done is now settling in.

There’s only cold, hard reality, and, inside, a growing panic.

Time to refocus.  You have to trust all that brought you to the point of jumping: your story, filled with all that thinking and feeling and behaving.

There’re are certainly more words now in your lexicon for describing your skills and your dreams, and those of people around you.  You’ve even made up some new words and phrases up as so many of the inherited didn’t fit comfortably.

You know why you are who you are and why this has led you down different paths to others.

‘Leave it all, and let you send just slip back into the rhythms of your intimate wildness. You will be surprised at the lost terrains, wells and mountains that you will rediscover, territories which have been buried under well-meaning but dead names.  To go beyond beyond confinement is to rediscover yourself.*

If your mind isn’t on the fear right now, it’s because you’ve just reconnected to your story – the one which caused you to jump, the one that’ll not let you down now.

(*From John O’Donohue’s Eternal Echoes.)